And he leans in, so carefully. Breathingand not breathing and hearts beatingbetween us and heās so close, heās so close and I canāt feel my legs anymore. I canāt feel my fingers or the cold or the emptiness of this room because all I feel is him, everywhere,filling everything and he whispersāPlease.āHe says āPlease donāt shoot me for this.āAnd he kisses me.His lips are softer than anything I’ve ever known, soft like a first snowfall, like biting into cotton candy, like melting and floating and being weightless in water. Itās sweet, itāsso effortlessly sweet.And then it changes.āOh GodāāHe kisses me again, this time stronger,desperate, like he has to have me, like heās dying to memorize the feel of my lips against his own. The taste of him is making me crazy; heās all heat and desire and peppermint and I want more. I’ve just begun reeling him in, pulling him into me when he breaks away.Heās breathing like heās lost his mind andheās looking at me like something has brokeninside of him, like heās woken up to find thathis nightmares were just that, that they never existed, that it was all just a bad dream that felt far too real but now heās awake and heās safe and everything is going to be okay andIām falling.Iām falling apart and into his heart and Iām a disaster.