denial, hate, lies, love, sarcasm, truth
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I take no joy in mead nor meat, and song and laughter have become suspicious strangers to me. I am a creature of grief and dust and bitter longings. There is an empty place within me where my heart was once.
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I choose to love you in silenceā¦For in silence I find no rejection,I choose to love you in lonelinessā¦For in loneliness no one owns you but me,I choose to adore you from a distanceā¦For distance will shield me from pain,I choose to kiss you in the windā¦For the wind is gentler than my lips,I choose to hold you in my dreamsā¦For in my dreams, you have no end.
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We met less than a week ago and in that time I’ve done nothing but lie and cheat and betray you. I know. But if you give me a chance…all I want is to protect you. To be near you. For as long as I’m able.
I understand addiction now. I never did before, you know. How could a man (or a woman) do something so self-destructive, knowing that theyāre hurting not only themselves, but the people they love? It seemed that it would be so incredibly easy for them to just not take that next drink. Just stop. Itās so simple, really. But as so often happens with me, my arrogance kept me from seeing the truth of the matter.I see it now though.Every day, I tell myself it will be the last. Every night, as Iām falling asleep in his bed, I tell myself that tomorrow Iāll book a flight to Paris, or Hawaii, or maybe New York. It doesnāt matter where I go, as long as itās not here. I need to get away from Phoenixāaway from himābefore this goes even one step further.And then he touches me again, and my convictions disappear like smoke in the wind.This cannot end well. Thatās the crux of the matter, Sweets. Iāve been down this road beforeāyou know I haveāand thereās only heartache at the end. Thereās no happy ending waiting for me like there was for you and Matt. If I stay here with him, I will become restless and angry. Itās happening already, and I cannot stop it. Iām becoming bitter and terribly resentful. Before long, I will be intolerable, and eventually, heāll leave me. But if I do what I have to do, what my very nature compels me to do, and move on, the end is no better. One way or another, heāll be gone. Is it not wiser to end it now, Sweets, before it gets to that point? Is it not better to accept that this happiness I have is destined to self-destruct?Tomorrow I will leave. Tomorrow I will stop delaying the inevitable. Tomorrow I will quit lying to myself, and to him. Tomorrow.What about today, you ask? Today itās already too late. Heāll be home soon, and I have dinner on the stove, and wine chilling in the fridge. And he will smile at me when he comes through the door, and I will pretend like this fragile, dangerous thing we have created between us can last forever.Just one last time, Sweets. Just one last fix. Thatās all I need.And that is why I now understand addiction.
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What is home? My favorite definition is “a safe place,” a place where one is free from attack, a place where one experiences secure relationships and affirmation. It’s a place where people share and understand each other. Its relationships are nurturing. The people in it do not need to be perfect; instead, they need to be honest, loving, supportive, recognizing a common humanity that makes all of us vulnerable.
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